| Comment | I think that my main issue at the moment is actually being in the midst of active depression. Normally I am quite a motivated person but last year I was bullied at work which damaged my confidence to the core. I am just waiting on my visa to Canada to relocate and change things up but it’s even hard to get excited about that at the moment. Coming online to work with the same people just brings me down so much but there’s no point in leaving until I move. I also know that even after I leave the scars will remain. I am gay and they have always excluded me, it’s a brick wall and I’ve just given up on trying. I am missing having positive social interaction like I had at my old job pre-pandemic. My experience of being at fitness settings in the past has always been feeling like the odd one out so it’s a difficult question to answer.
In all honesty, I have no idea what motivates me anymore. I just hate looking in the mirror at the moment and I’m missing the way my body used to be when I felt good about myself.
Good advice to start small but I just need to find out what small change I will make first. If that makes me feel any better then I might feel more motivated.
Sorry for the essay! |
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