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TitleDo you have experience with Mental Health charities? I have, and I don't think they're beneficial.
AuthorJimmyTheGinger
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# The main reason for this post is not to seek help or advice, nor is it to get something off my chest. I'm posting asking others to share their experience with Mental Health charities and if you found helplines/webchats such as CALM to be beneficial. Please share your experience.

I'm not using a throw away. I'm not hiding my identity. I'm well aware that what I'm about to say is easy to hate. I'm not too sure how to put this into words.


Before I start, I want to say, I really don't want to read cheesy comments like "You are loved! Everything will be okay. Have you tried meditation?". I'm well aware that many people do benefit from uncondiational love from stangers online but I am not one of them as I find it detracts from legitimate conversation thus hindering progress. It can help mend emotional wounds and slow the spiral but when you've had lifelong 'mental health issues' (I hate that term) hearing the same thing over and over is triggering. Please refrain, thank you.


I guess I have to explain who I am and why I'm posting. I'm fast approaching 30 years old. I lived overseas for 7 years. I have ADHD with comorbid OCD, Anxiety and Depression (I'm also on the Autistic spectrum but I have no official diagnosis). Being ADHD (which wasn't diagnosed until I left school) you have a history or recurring failures stemming from emotional dysregulation and poor academic acheivments. Failing school and having inconsistent social circles is common for those with undiagnosed ADHD.


The mistakes of my past are with me forever. In my late teens and early 20's I went through hell trying to find my place in society. I was never able to hold down a job for very long. The usual 9-5 office culture was hell for me, and it took me years to build up the courage to be myself. Leaving Scotland was the best thing that ever happened to me. Not having to listen to my parents criticisim or deal with their controlling tendancies regarding my choice of work, hobbies, how I spent my money or the friends I had was a huge weight off my shoulders. For many years I was independant and thriving.


October 2019 I got really sick (I honestly think I had COVID. My new housemate came from Wuhan and was ill for over a week) and during this time I honestly though I might die. I spent 3 days in the hospital unable to breath with a pounding heart, and all I could think about was 'Me or my family could die anyday, and I haven't seen them in 5 years and everytime I call my mum shes drunk'. I described it as a midlife crisis. I felt an urge to return home and spend time with my family, and that's what I did. Months later COVID shut the world down and I knew this was going to last for years, but I wasn't concerened. I chose to come home and I made the most of it, for a while.


Fast forward 2 years.. My money has run dry, I have no friends. I live with my parents and I'm basically stuck. My parents are hoarders, and the house is constantly cluttered. It wasn't my intention to get stuck in my parents house but life is a bitch and you play the hand you're dealt. I wasn't able to work out, I got fat, running for the train (which is almost daily for someone with ADHD as we're always late) felt like it would induce asthma/heart attacks. Everything has gone wrong and very little has gone my way.


Having dealt with low mood and negative thoughts in the past, I'm very good at dealing with bad situations. My depression is mild comapred to what I've experienced in the past, my anxiety is mild. For the most part I have a clear head, but my ADHD is complex. It stops me from driving, limiting the kind of work I can do, and in general isn't compatible with living in the UK.


One night, after a really good day out, I tried to speak with my mother regarding her drink
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CreatedThu 27th Jan 2022 5:55am
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